suddenly

suddenly i fell so desperate
suddenly everything is not as what i expected
suddenly i feeling hurt
i don know why i let my negative attitude to control my mind
just feel depressed
then suddenly sad memory appear in my mind
which made me even down.

i knew i must be strong , but I suddenly lack of motivation
may be i just don want other peoples to worry for me
perhaps nothing should be blame,
just blame all is from myself,
perhaps, this is a human weakness,
where feeling is so suddenly which made a people feel even down

'a doctor will sure be miserable if he can cure his patients
but he can not cure his own illness.'
suddenly i just hope that it is going to be rain
so that the rain can wash away the pain
and let the sad memory to go away.

God, i dare not to expect anythings from U,
just hope that God can give me Guidance and give me
Strength to be strong.